Next please...

Well, last night's awkwardness with EP came crystal clear today. After he helped me run an errand and I dropped him off, he looked at me and said the 4-word power sentence, "We need to talk."

So I turn off the car and reply, "I think I already know what you're about to say -- but go ahead anyway."

I'll spare you the details but basically he can't get over that I was treated for an STD 2 years ago. And if you know which STD I described in my Jan. 16 blog entry, you're probably screaming, "WHAT?!?!?!"

OH yeah. He had a doctor's appt earlier this week and asked about it. And the doctor said, "Well, it's pretty much unavoidable that you'll get it too." Eye roll.

EP assured me that he thought I was "special" and that there weren't "many other girls out there like [me]" but that this medical condition was still an issue for him but that he really likes/cares for me and doesn't know what we should do.

So I told him what I thought we should do. I told him there's nothing I can say or do that's going to change his mind, so we should just stop where we are and do our own things before someone's feelings really get hurt. I did share a little anecdotal evidence that several of my other female friends have been treated for it and it hasn't been an issue in their relationships. Trust me though, there were many other seriously bitchy things going through my head that I wanted to say -- but figured I should probably keep my cool. The conversation ended with him basically not knowing what he wanted to do and that he needed time to "clear his head" and "we'd talk soon." Then he got out of the car and that was it. Oh please.

Lessons to be learned...
My jaded side: At our age, sometimes it just doesn't pay to be good. My ENTIRE life I've been very conscious about taking care of myself physically (ie: limiting my # of sexual partners) and making choices that I think will build my character and do some good in the world. And for whatever reasons, it seems like the guys who I've met who actually have their acts together (EP and Seattle Crush) just don't think I'm worth it. Maybe I need to revisit what I consider to be my type.
My optimistic side: EP just doesn't know what he's missing. And he can look forward to me never answering his calls.

But now ladies, the question is -- should I put my profile back up?! LOL.